Friday, April 23, 2010

Friday, April 16, 2010

Last semester and trimester

So this is my last semester and I will graduate with my Bachelors in Communication and Minor in English. I have to wing 18 credits, graduation and deliver a baby all within a precarious amount of time, but I will do my best! Justin is off track and is working at the Hospital doing housekeeping 30 hours a week and works as a cook/driver at Pizza Hut approximately 15 to 20 hours a week. He is such a hard worker and we are on the constant lookout for new jobs. We are happy to actually stay in Rexburg for a summer but can't help but think about the money we could be making if Justin was working for Pinnacle Security again this summer. It's just as much time and effort he is putting in now and yet a lot more fruitful. But, Justin and I didn't think we could be apart from each other in the last trimester of the pregnancy and my graduation. Cache is growing and active. I swear this kid is going to be a handful because he never rests as it is. I am having lots of good and not so good pregnancy dreams, heartburn and 4 a.m. cravings for grilled cheese and Raisin Bran. I just wanted to acknowledge all of the incredible mothers out there who endured 9 months of discomfort and emotional and physcial changes. I never imagined it would take this much energy, effort and resilience to have a child and I have not even seen him yet!!!! I never wanted to have children much less get married but things always have a way of surprising and changing you. I met a man who I trust with my life and my love and can't believe there is somebody good and strong enough to make me feel confident bringing a child into our screwed up world. But Handy does exist and I am so happy for it. This is going to be an amazing adventure that has already had an interesting and humbling start.